Sho (Shouryu LEUNG), who was born a female, always has had a rather masculine personality ever since she could remember. She hated wearing skirts but loved playing robots and swordsmanship. As she was still too young back in the days, she did not ponder on her behaviours, thoughts, and sexuality. In the 80’s when she grew up, there were not many who talked about topics such as “sexual orientation” and “gender identity”, and her relationship with parents was rather estranged, that was why she could not find anyone to confide in. While recalling her puberty, Sho remembers the many awkward situations which she encountered – “My body was maturing back then, and I needed to wear female underwear which was a very unpleasant thing for me.”
After entering secondary school, Sho had begun wearing unisex clothing and had started to grow her interest in the opposite sex. Fortunately, people usually do not gaze oddly at female who put on unisex clothing in the modern society. However, deep down in Sho’s heart, she could not help but wonder “What is my real gender?”, “Am I a lesbian if I like girls?”. Yet, the answers never emerged at the time.
After treading through a period when she doubted her sexuality, Sho then jumped from being a secondary student to an undergraduate and acquainted with a group of friends who enthused about theatre, after which she began expanding her social circle. In 2013, she wrote a script about “gender identity” by which she gained a better understanding of herself and determined that she be a “He”. In the same year, she decided to make a momentous step in life - she visited a psychiatrist and had undergone a psychiatric assessment to seriously consider whether or not she would take a transsexual operation. “I did not know whether I would eventually complete the entire operation because there were so many things at stake, but I was sure that it was a significant experience for me to find myself.”
Since 2013, Sho has undergone psychiatric and p
天生女兒身的阿Sho (梁儷覺)，從有記憶開始，就是一副男孩子的個性，討厭穿裙子，愛玩機器人和刀刀劍劍。當年仍是小孩的她，對自己的行為、想法以至男女觀念都沒有太深的思索。在她成長的八零年代，關於「性傾向」、「性別認同」這類話題，都很少人談論，而她自小與父母的關係也比較疏離，所以一直找不到人可以訴心事。回想踏入青春期，阿Sho開始遇到不少尷尬事：「那時身體開始發育，需要配戴女性內衣，但這對我來說是相當難受的事情。」
踏入中學，阿Sho開始習慣穿著中性服飾，亦開始對異性有所好奇。尤幸在我們的社會，女生作中性打扮較少被人投以奇怪目光，不過在阿Sho的心底深處，仍不禁浮現許多問號：「到底自己真實性別是什麼？」、「自己喜歡女生是不是同性戀呢？」然而，答案仍未出現！
走過一段對自身性別疑惑的歲月，阿Sho從中學生變成大學生，更有機會認識一班熱衷話劇的朋友，開始學會擴闊自己。2013年，她編寫了一個關於「性別認同」的劇本，再次加深對自己的認識，認定自己是那個「他」。同年，更決定踏出人生重要一步，找精神科醫生接受精神評估，認真思考變性的事情：「我不知道最終自己能否完成整個變性手術，畢竟有太多因素需要考量，但我確信這是一個能找回自己的重要經歷。」
2013年至今，阿Sho經歷了精神及心理評估、藥物治療及外科手術。期間，本身是日文老師的「他」，除了擔心變性會否影響工作及與學生的關係外，最憂慮的，始終是如何向母親坦白。今天的「他」，選擇以一個跨性別人士的身份生活，要走的路到底將會是如何呢？
