this past year has been crazy. with the success of my book, i thought the shame i felt about my past would finally wash away. surprise! it didn't. listen to the episode to hear more about it, i don't want to spoil it all here. why are you still reading this? please go listen now.
i recorded this episode in new york city, the capital of stink. i was in a pissy mood. i kind of want to mention the hotel i stayed in so that, should you visit new york, you don’t have to subject yourself to those nasty, moldy steamers, but i can’t bring myself to. actually i can, it was called public hotel.
i used to be an "underdog". it was a narrative that fueled me. nowadays i don't have the external circumstances that support that narrative, so what do i do now ? no i'm actually asking. this isn't rhetorical. i'm literally asking you, the reader, to tell me what to do now. you can send ideas to my managers, norm & derek, at mainstay entertainment.
in this episode i delve into loyalty and, more specifically, what an issue i think it presents in certain relationships. the key relationship that comes to mind for me is the one with my "dad". to understand why i put "dad" in quotes, you're gonna have to listen to the episode. mormon punch recipe: 1 part sprite, 1 part rainbow sherbet, 1 dollop of whipped cream, ice to taste.
"doctor week" is a week i dread every year. it's a week where i stuff as many doctor's appointments in as possible because i dread them so much that i want to get them all over with as quickly as possible. this time, the appointments were a mammogram, ultrasound, pap smear, genetic testing, and an egg freezing consultation. i talk about what these appointments brought up for me emotionally, in the most i-have-zero-credentials-and-am-clearly-not-a-doctor sort of way.
i don't think friendships are necessarily a forever thing. i think sometimes it's beneficial to end them. in my twenties, i tried to stay in expired friendships where the dynamic was doing me a disservice. in this episode, i talk through two examples of when i ended "key" friendships in my life.
abandonment issues: we all know them, we all hate them. well, maybe we don't all know them. but i certainly do. in a heightened way. even with, i'm embarrassed to admit, my assistant...
once upon a time there was a girl named jennette who struggled with acne. she then became a woman named jennette who still struggled with acne. this was a confusing and frustrating journey for her. until she met a handsome prince named benzoyl peroxide. only, the story is a lot more complicated than that. listen to the episode to hear the full fairytale.
i used to think work-life balance was for lazy people who couldn't cut it. turns out, they were on to something. sorry i judged you, you balanced and healthy individuals.
i got lunch with a new friend and it was a deeply fulfilling experience. have i finally beaten social anxiety ? or was there just something specific and special about this connection ?